- With lots of love Yours Honey

Adarsh Nagar

Sunny day  and it's 12 noon , feeling like am near some furnace. Came to Adarsh Nagar after a long time , I think I came here when I was 13/14. When I saw the board of Adarsh Nagar, breezes of his thoughts tickled me. Took couple of Pictures (I want to  prepare an album with all pictures of my today's  journey  and wanna present him when I meet him again) 

Went to Balaji temple ( Birla 's)   ahhh.. but its closed :(   

1.00pm  Started to  Hyderguda.

Himayath Nagar

HimayathNagar, St.Paul's , it's about 10 min from Adarsh Nagar, One of d good schools in Hyderabad 

St.Paul's hmm this  ambience  reminded me my  school  days too and  I couldn't control my laugh as I've imagined  him as a  tiny tot holding a bag  :D :D :D :D.. !!! again took some snaps  , talked to a cutie kid Arpan ,stayed there for sometime , had some sugarcane juice with ginger and lemon .. 

From there I went to Uppal ,it's almost an hour from this place . How this guy managed everyday  hm.. he really has lot of patience :P

 2.00 pm Uppal

 Little Flowers ,, I have seen this school/college many times before but now it's a very special place to me  because my santa's gift  studied here :D same like before places took some snaps .

From here  I again went to Birla mandir .. had peaceful darshan obviously because who will go to temple at that time (2 pm :D :D  ) that too in peak summer time

Reached  my apartment  ofcourse he too own an apartment in the same building . Took print out of all the softcopies and carefully prepared an album to give him as my next Christmas Gift ( Unlike me I should be with him  forver ... !!! )  I know he will love this and this will be his best gift  forever in his life  and ofcourse it should be ... !!!

I missed him lot  and this is the only way I could convince myself that am with him. Crazy car trip for the one who made me crazy with his love and affection :)

                                                                                                                                - With lots of love  Yours Honey





P.S   Article was copied from other source    :) :D

Aww loved this don't you ??? 

నాకు ఇలాంటి gift ఇవ్వాలంటే మొత్తం ఎన్ని ఊరులు తిరగాలో ఇచ్చే వాళ్ళు   :D 

it's really the same :) :)

Looking back on all the crazy times we spend together, I only have happy tears and memories resurfacing in my mind. May your Birthday bring you happier, zanier and crazier memories moving forward.   Happy Birthday Praneeth Raju , Miss you and am really sad that I couldn't spend time with you on your special day, no worries have a lovely day with your family and send me your b'day cake and I wud really love if you can bring personally  :P

నేను అప్పుడే నా birthday  కి countdown start చేసేసాను  :D లాస్ట్ year birthday ముందు రోజు  too worst అసలు  cards ,mobiles పోయాయి  (నా  number 63833221 : (  ఎప్పుడయినా నెంబర్ పోతే ఎక్కువ రోజులు పక్క వాళ్ళ నెంబర్ temporary గా కూడా use చెయ్యకూడదు  that 's what I have learnt  recently "Sorry  neeha  :( "   )    

ఈసారి పోయినవి ఏదయినా మళ్లీ దొరికితే బావుండు   :P 

hehe august కి ఇంకా 120 days ఉన్నాయి oy తొందరగా రావచ్చు  కదా  :D   nikhil , jay ,supriya ,krish  they made my last year bday  very special  అంత మూడ్ ఆఫ్ లో ఉన్నా కూడా evening  కి నా 32 teeth చూపించకుండా ఉండలేకపోయా  :)   bavu పంపిన  cake , sujay  ఇచ్చిన album   such a lovely evening it was  :)

if you look over the years, the styles have changed - the clothes, the hair, the production, the approach to the songs. The icing to the cake has changed flavors. But if you really look at the cake itself, it's really the same :) :) 

నేను కూడా  same కొంచెం కూడా birthday అంటే ఉన్న craze తగ్గలేదు  ;P బావుంటుంది కదా ఏదయినా చెయ్యచ్చు ఆరోజ, extra అడగచ్చు , అప్పటి దాకా బతికి ఉన్నారో లేదో తెలియని friends కూడా birthday wishes చెప్పటానికి call చేస్తారు (అప్పుడు మనం class ఇచ్చినా ఏమి అనలేరు :D ) boldu gifts ,blessings  ,resolutions ufff  ఇంకా బోల్డు రాయచ్చు కానీ నా B 'day post కి  రాస్తా :D 

Confessions of a lonely Girl

London , Mar'13

 Love affairs have been failing, and parents feel very happy.  Love affairs are failing because first the marriage was arranged by the astrologer, then it was arranged by the parents, and now it is being arranged by biology, by instinct. You suddenly feel that you like a woman, but you don't know how long this is going to last and you are not even aware why you like her. You are not even alert to what it is in you that likes her. Maybe it is just her hairstyle. Now, are you going to get married to a hairstyle? You can get married, but tomorrow morning when you see her hair disheveled you will be at a loss: 

"Is this the same woman I fell in love with?" How long can you be interested in the hairstyle? Soon you will get fed up. The same hairstyle again and again -- the whole day, twenty-four hours a day...!

People are falling in love because a certain man has a certain type of nose. People are falling in love with fragments! Nobody is bothered about the totality of the person -- and it is a vast thing. The real thing is the total functioning of the person, and that can be experienced only when you live together.

I have never heard about any perfect marriage. They say perfect marriages are made in heaven. Nobody comes back from there so maybe it is true, but what kind of marriage will those perfect marriages be? There will be no tension, there will be no individuality in the man or in the woman. They will never collide, they will never fight. They will be too sweet to each other. And too much sweetness brings diabetes! :D


Arranged marriage is like a nightmare for me, I gave million excuses for rejecting someone whom my parents have chosen  .In search of a fairy tale love where guy shares a highest emotional attachment with me, who couldn't stay a single day without me and who never believe  any false things what others say about me and when something went wrong who asks me for the explaination rather than blindly believing every thing that he knew from others. oh yea he should be more than 6 feet. Too many expectations messed up my first love and my fairy tale too. Because I don't know at that time that even in fairy tale like love story we need to compromise in somethings.

My parents always expected me to marry a guy who earns millions of rupees , who belongs to blue blood and all absolute absurd things,when I loved a guy, they said am  not that mature enough to take decision about my marriage ( !!!!??? Crazy line I have ever heard ) while am fighting with this things , some very strange misunderstandings aroused between the guy and me and my parents took  advantage of all what happened . Forced me to do do/write things what I never supposed to do/say. I  wonder how money and other materialistic things makes  life happy. No they won't ,, Relationship is synonym for deep emotional bonding and why these people don't know that being so much older and wiser people than me .

Whatever I have decided to gave up on him and also on my parent's choice too.

  I know  if I once meet personally and explained what really happened everything will be solved and  I can happily stay with the guy whom I loved but I didn't because I thought it's not worthy to share life with someone who kept all the things aside  ,who forgot all the good times we have shared and clinging on a single misunderstanding. I  know  am too arrogant to accept that I still love him.

 I have decided to move on. I wanted my breakup in such a way that he won't bother me in near future.I have succeeded ,he even don't care even if I die, But strangely now am over concerned about him :)  is it because still  I love him?


Probably we don't really love each other , Love is death of the ego, the personality, the false. There is no way to have both, love and ego. Either you can have the ego or you can have love. We both have that ego issues.May be we just admire each other that's it.

 Dear Santa next time please give me such a Christmas gift  which will stay with me forever.Give me true love if that won't exists never bring the thought of loving somebody again in my mind.

అందరి కథలు   ఒకలానే ఉంటాయనుకుంటా  ..!!!

                               

 

" Zen: The Path of Paradox, Vol 3 " - Osho

You don't get over someone when you break up, you get over them after you've watched them move on.

Sometimes you have to let the one you love go, even if it's the last person you got.

lol font మీద ఉన్న concern  gf మీద ఉండుంటే letter అవసరం వచ్చేది కాదేమో  funny ..... !! ఈ సారిcomic -sans  ట్రై చెయ్యండి  :P


Read  this beautiful parable:

A young man, who had a bitter disappointment in life, went to a remote monastery and said to the Master, ”I am disillusioned with life and wish to attain enlightenment to be freed from these sufferings. But I have no capacity for sticking long at anything. I could never do long years of meditation and study and austerity. I would relapse and be drawn back to the world again, painful though I know it to be. Is there any short way for people like me?”

”There is,” said the Master, ”if you are really determined. Tell me, what have you studied? What have you concentrated on most in your life?”

”Why, nothing really. We were rich and I did not have to work. I suppose the thing I was really interested in was chess; I spent most of my time at that.”

The Master thought for a moment and then said to his attendant, ”Call such-and-such a monk, and tell him to bring a chess board and men.”

But the attendant said, ”Sir, that monk does not know how to play chess.”

The Master said, ”Don’t be worried. You simply call him.”

The monk came with the board and the Master set up the men. He sent for a sword and showed it to the two. ”Oh monk,” he said, ”you have vowed obedience to me as your Master, and now I require it of you. You will play a game of chess with this youth, and if you lose I shall cut off your head with this sword.”

And the man does not know much about chess. Maybe he can recognize the chessboard, or maybe he has played once or twice when he was young. But to put this man against this young, rich man, who has never done anything but play chess, is simply a death warrant. And then the Master says, ”You have surrendered to me, and you have told me I can do anything I want with your life or with your death. Now the moment has come. If you lose I shall cut off your head with this sword.”

And a naked sword is there in the hands of the Master, and he is standing just close by. ”But I promise that if you die by my hand, you will be born in paradise. If you win, I shall cut off the head of this man. Chess is the only thing he has ever tried hard at, and if he loses he deserves to lose his head also.” They looked at the Master’s face and saw that he meant it: he would cut off the head of the loser.

They began to play. With the opening moves the youth felt the sweat trickling down to his heels as he played for his life. The chessboard became the whole world; he was entirely concentrated on it. At first he had somewhat the worst of it, but then the other made an inferior move and he seized his chance to launch a strong attack. As his opponent’s position crumbled, he looked covertly at him. He saw a face of intelligence and sincerity, worn with years of austerity and effort.

The other was a beggar – a BHIKKHU – his eyes were silent and calm. He was not disturbed even by the idea of death. He was playing because of the Master’s request, and he had surrendered himself so there was no problem in it. Even if paradise were not promised, then too, he would have to follow. He was playing calm and quiet. His eyes were very silent and very intelligent – and the young man is winning! and the monk’s moves are going all wrong! The young man looked at the monk – the grace, the austerity, the beauty, the silence, the intelligence.

He thought of his own worthless life, and a wave of compassion came over him. He decided: ”To let this man die is unnecessary. If I die, nothing is lost to the earth. I am a stupid man, I have wasted my life, I have nothing. This man has worked hard, disciplined his life, has lived a life of austerity, a life of meditation and prayer. If he is killed that will be a loss.” Great compassion arose in him. He deliberately made a blunder and then another blunder, ruining his position and leaving himself defenseless.

The Master suddenly leant forward and upset the board. The two contestants sat stupefied. ”There is no winner and no loser,” said the Master slowly. ”There is no need to fall here. Only two things are required, ” and he turned to the young man, ”complete concentration and compassion. You have today learned them both. You were completely concentrated on the game, but then in that concentration you could feel compassion and sacrifice your life for it. Now, stay here a few months and pursue our training in this spirit and your enlightenment is sure. He did so and got it.

A tremendously beautiful story. The Master created a situation and showed the whole path. This is DIRECT – showing the path. He showed all that can be shown! There are only two things – meditation and compassion. Meditation means being utterly absorbed into something, totally absorbed into something, completely lost. If you are dancing and only the dance remains and the dancer is forgotten, then it is meditation. If you are gambling and only gambling remains and the gambler disappears, then it is meditation. It can be any activity.

Source: " Zen: The Path of Paradox, Vol 3 " - Osho

అందుకే అమ్మాయిలు చాలా important

కొంత మంది  మన life లో మనతో 0.001 % టైం గడిపినా కూడా చాలా unique గా మన లైఫ్ లో గుర్తుండిపోతారు . కొంత మంది attitude ,మాటలు  addictive గా ఉంటాయి ఏమి చెయ్యలేము  example  mmm ... ఎవరో ఎందుకు నేను ఉన్నా కదా  :P  lol just kidding  :D

hey నేను ఈరోజు ఒక స్టోరీ రాస్దాము అనుకుంటున్నా నేను ఇక్కడ రాస్తా మీకు ఇంక వేరే   choice లేదు చదవాల్సిందే ,, incase  ఇంకో choice ఉన్నా కూడా లేదనుకోండి కొంచెం సేపు  :D చూడండి ఇంత మంచి solution చెప్పానో choices ఏప్పుడు tempt చేస్తాయి సో చెయ్యాల్సింది మాత్రమే choice అనుకోవాలి (ఈ  లైన్ ఏదో బుక్ లో రాస్తాడు fish philosophy ఏదో గుర్తులేదు )

సర్లే ఇంక చదవండి  :)

farmer కి దారిలో  ఒక రాయి దొరుకుతుంది అది చిన్ని గా ,క్యూట్ గా shining గా (ఇంక  description ఆపేస్తున్నా లేండి :P ) ఉండటం తో  తన దగ్గర ఉన్న donkey  తాడుకి  వేలడదీస్తాడు  (పాపం సింగల్ ఏమో  :P )
అలా ఒకరోజు దారిలో వీడికి ఒక jeweller కనిపిస్తాడు .ఆ పెద్ద మనిషేమో ఈ రాయి చూసి నేను ఈ  రాయిని కొంటాను ఎంత కి ఇస్తావు అంటే  ఎనిమిది అణాలు అంటాడు ,ఈ పెద్ద మనిషేమో ఇంకా బేరం ఆడాలి చవకగా తీసుకోవాలి అని 4 అణాలు కంటే ఇవ్వను అంటాడు
అయితే నా రాయి నా దగ్గరే ఉంచుకుంటా అని ఈ farmer వెళ్ళిపోతాడు . అయితే దారిలో ఇంకోడు కనిపించి 1000 అణా ఇస్తా అంటే వీడు ఇంక మొదటి వాడు 4 ఏ ఇస్తా అన్నాడు కదా  అని అమ్మేస్తాడు  .

కొంచెం సేపటికి మొదటి jeweller వచ్చి నువ్వు అడిగినట్టు 8 అణా ఇస్తాను   రాయి ఇయ్యి అంటాడు . అప్పుడు ఆ farmer ఇంకెక్కడ రాయి 1000 కి అమ్మేసా అంటాడు .

ఈ jeweller కి చాలా చిరాకు వచ్చి "నీకు అసలు బుర్ర ఉందా ? ఆ రాయి కొన్ని లక్షలు ఖరీదు చేస్తుంది అని  మొత్తుకుంటాడు "

అప్పుడు  ఈ రైతు  అంటాడు  నాకంటే దీని విలువ తెలీదు కాబట్టి 1000 కి అమ్మేసాను మరి నీకు తెలిసి కూడా 8 అణాలు ఇవ్వటానికి  సందేహించావంటే నిన్ను ఏమి అనాలి అంటాడు  :D  point ఏ కదా

కొన్ని సార్లు మనకు ఆ వస్తువు విలువ /మనిషి విలువ తెలిసినా కూడా సరి అయిన  value ఇవ్వటానికి ఇష్ట పడము అంతా అయిపోయాక  ఏడుస్తాము ఆ jeweller లా  :) (చూడండి గాడిద కి కాకుండా ఏ వైఫ్ కో gf  ఇచ్చి ఉంటే  వాడి  రాయి వాడి దగ్గరే ఉండేది అందుకే అమ్మాయిలు చాలా important lol )

ఒకటి అంటారు  businessman motto ఏంటి అంటే దొరుకుతుందో దొరకదో అన్న దాని గురించి నీ దగ్గర ఉన్నది ఎప్పుడూ stake చేయ్య కూడదు అని , అదే ఒక దొంగ ను చూస్తే ఉంటాయో  ఉండదో తెలియని  వాటి గురించి తన లైఫ్ అంతా stake  చేస్తాడు అలా చెయ్యాలి  ఉండాలంటే చాలా courage కావాలి కూడా కదా ..

ఒకటి మాత్రం నిజం ఏ struggle లేకుండా మనకు ఏదయినా valuable ది దొరకచ్చు ఏమో కానీ ఎక్కువ రోజులు మన దగ్గర మాత్రం అది ఉండదు .
Naomi and Ely's No Kiss List అనే బుక్ లో ఒక లైన్ ఉంటుంది 

Things that matter are not easy. Feelings of happiness are easy. Happiness is not. Flirting is easy. Love is not. Saying you’re friends is easy. Being friends is not.”

అది  అనమాట  సంగతి  :D

కొంచెం sensible గా advanced గా....

ఒక లేడీ తన పాప తో bus లో ఒక ticket తీసుకుని కూర్చుంటుంది .Conductor నీకు ఎన్ని years అని ఆ పాప ని అడిగితే  4 అని చెప్తుంది  మళ్లీ  అదే కండక్టర్  నీకు ఎప్పుడు 5 years వస్తాయి అంటే ..వాళ్ళ అమ్మ వైపు చూసి "ఈ బస్సు దిగగానే " అంటుంది   :D 

ఇక్కడ she  taught to say something but she still cannot understand the motivation so she repeats like a parrot.

childhood ఎప్పుడూ చాలా బావుంటది కదా  . ఎప్పుడు అయినా కొంత మంది పిల్లలు ఆడుకోవడం observe చేస్తే ఆలా తిరుగుతూ, గంతులు వేస్తూ,skate చేస్తూ  ఉంటారు, పెద్ద  reason ఉండదు వాళ్ళు enjoy చెయ్యటానికి  and if you ask for what they will shrug shoulders. వాళ్లకి desire అంటే తెలీదు వాళ్లకు తెల్సింది ఒక్కటే  " Language of playfulness"

Bible లో ఒక లైన్ ఉంటుంది అంట " You will not able to enter the kingdom of god unless you became a child again"

so  fun అనేది  చాలా religious word ,seriousness is very irreligious  :D అందుకనే always be playful . ఇప్పుడు  ఏదయినా  decision కీ  conclusion కి రావాలంటే తలలు పగిలి పోయే లెవెల్ ఆలోచిస్తాము కదా , ఇప్పుడు కూడా "eenie meenie minie mo" or "inkie pinkie ponkie " అంత ఈజీ decision making tools :P  ఉంటే  బావుండు కదా  :P (hehe కొంచెం sensible గా advanced గా....  :D  )

“Grown ups are complicated creatures, full of quirks and secrets." :D

 ఎంత reserved గా ఎంత low profile maintain చేస్తే అంత గ్రేట్ అనుకుంటాము but అది ఎంత మాత్రం నిజం కాదు , ఎవరికి వాళ్లే life  లీడ్ చేసుకుంటే మన చుట్టూ ఇంతమంది  ఎందుకు ఉంటారు .  probably మనకు మనం ఉండటం వల్ల ఏ problems ,irritations ఉండకపోవచ్చు మనం happy గా ఉండచ్చు కానీ we can't be joyful. happiness వేరు joy వేరు . ఇంకొకరితో మన happiness షేర్ చేసుకున్నప్పుడు joy అవుతుంది . 

చిన్న పిల్లల్లు అందుకే ఎప్పుడూ joyful గా ఉంటారు  వాళ్లకు మనలాగా  economic mind ఉండదు . వీళ్ళతో share చేసుకోకూడదు  ,మాట్లాడకూడదు లాంటి పిచ్చి thoughts  చాలా తక్కువ ఉంటాయి  . ఒక age వచ్చే దాకా ఎవరితో అయినా మాట్లాడగలరు ఎవరిని అయినా కలుపుగోగలరు  , తర్వాతే అన్ని పిచ్చిలు స్టార్ట్ అవుతాయి cast ,creed,color,beauty,ego.

society brain ని tune చెయ్యటం స్టార్ట్ చేస్తుంది నిజానికి వాళ్ళు ఎందుకు చెపుతున్నారు వీళ్ళకు కూడా తెలీదు జస్ట్ like ముందు ఆ bus  situation లాగా  blind గా follow అవుతాము మనలో ఉన్న చైల్డ్ ని తీసి పారేస్తాము, చిన్న పిల్లల్లా behave చెయ్యటం తప్పు అనుకుంటాము . 

ఒకటి అర్ధం కాదేందుకు మనకి  ఎవరికి అయినా root childhood ఏ అలాంటి దానినే మనం చిన్నగా చూస్తే ఇంక దేనిని మనం నిజంగా appreciate చెయ్యగలము ? As simple as when you can't love your mother,you can't love any women. అన్నిటిలో ఏదో miss అయినా ఫీలింగ్ haunt చేస్తుంది మనని  ఏది మనని satisfy చెయ్యలేదు . 

Bring the child back in you అందరితో మీ happiness share చేసుకోండి , ప్రతీ దానికి దీని వల్ల ఏమౌతుంది ,ఏం use అవుతుంది ,వీళ్ళతో మనకు ఏంటి అన్న thought పక్కన పెట్టండి . లైఫ్ for sure ఇప్పుడు ఉన్న దాని కంటే బెటర్ ఉంటుంది . 

btw ఈరోజుతో నా బ్లాగ్ రాయటం స్టార్ట్ చేసి 3 years  :)